Since coming back home in December, the number one question that I've been asked is "What's next?" Two words, which for me at the time, were filled with so much uncertainty. I didn't know what came next. I didn't even know where to begin.
One thing I've realized over the past couple of months is that I'm not alone in this uncertainty. I've talked to so many people ranging all different ages and they all seemed to be in the same predicament. Whether it's making a life change, to making a career choice, or even choosing a ministry to be apart of. The season of not knowing and waiting on the Lord is being experienced by many. And yet, I've realized the importance of not knowing. It's only through this season of uncertainty and waiting that we learn what complete dependence on our Savior actually is.
In the next month, I'll be taking my next step of faith. After much prayer and confirmation, I'll be returning to Croatia in March for however long the Lord sees fit. I've had many people ask me (and I know many people are wondering and don't want to ask) how I know that the Lord is calling me back to Croatia. I wanted to share this journey with you, not only to show how good the God we serve is but also to bless and encourage those who are going through a season of not knowing what comes next.
When I returned home in December, I had my mind set on getting a job and becoming an "adult." I had a job offer that guaranteed security, a retirement plan, a 401 k, benefits, etc etc. All of the essentials needed in living the American dream. I had come to a place where having a secure future became more important than following the calling that the Lord had placed on my life. I say 'my life,' because what the Lord has called me to is different than what the Lord has called you to. He may have you at a 9-5 job and for that you should praise Him because that's a privilege not many are given.
While at Bible college, I had a teacher, friend and mentor teach me the importance of having scripture confirmation to back up whatever decision needs to be made. I've held onto that counsel strongly. So when the Lord gave me passages in scripture, I knew there was no denying the calling He has placed on my life. I laid out a ton of questions for the Lord to answer and knew that He would answer them in His perfect timing.
His perfect timing. Not a second before and not a second after. I know sometimes we want the answers right away. However, God, the Creator of the Universe, the I Am, knows when our prayers are to be answered as well as how they should be answered. Take rest in knowing that our God is the Sustainer of all things, including your questions, problems, joy and heart ache. Find comfort in the fact that He is in all things and uses all things for His glory.
I wanted to share some of the scriptures that the Lord has given me.
Am I called to the missions field?
"Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord."
1 Corinthians 15:58
"For it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure."
"And do not grow weary in doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
Am I called to Croatia?
"Get out of your country, From your family and from your father's house, to a land that I will show you."
"The Lord God of heaven, who took me from my father’s house and from the land of my family, and who spoke to me and swore to me, saying, ‘To your descendants I give this land,’ He will send His angel before you.."
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."
What part would I play in Croatia?
"Strengthen the weak hands, and make firm the feeble knees. Say to those who are fearful-hearted, 'Be strong, do not fear!'"
Isaiah 35 :3-4
"Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert."
How was I going to raise financial support?
"Therefore do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For you heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. "
"Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?"
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not in your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path."
These scriptures only scratch the surface of what the Lord has been showing me since I returned home. There is no denying of the task that the Lord has set in front of me.
So I am hoping that you would partner with me in prayer. I wouldn't want to take a step forward without a prayer team behind me. There is power in prayer!
"The effective fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much."
If you would like to partner with me in this way, please let me know. I would have no greater joy than to put your name on my prayer chain.
I also ask that you please consider supporting me financially while I am on the missions field. If you are able to partner with me on this new journey, please contact me personally.
"that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height—to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."
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